If you can read this, and not get dizzy. Feel free to.

1. When people ask me what am I afraid of, I blank out. Am I supposed to always respond with an answer that people are okay with? Such as, I’m afraid of bugs, or I’m afraid of heights. Am I supposed to be always afraid of something? But what if I say, I’m not really afraid of anything yet? This won’t go well with some people, some will start thinking, oh that girl is so fake or that girl is overly confident. But really, I just haven’t figured it out myself yet. I still have to look deep within myself to see the fear that I don’t want others to know. If I do finally know my fear, I will definitely update this.
2. Again, I don’t know what I’m willing to die for. I can say that I’m willing to die for my family. But what if the time comes and that doesn’t happen? Sometimes people say they are willing to die for something, but in reality, they won’t even know if they willing when the time comes. Because everything that happens, happen in that moment. No one would be able to know what he/she would be feeling in that moment, I won’t know until the time comes and I die for someone I really care about, then I will know what I’m willing to die for.
3. Music calms me down in the toughest times; it drowns out my sorrow and what I don’t want to hear. Before I discovered music in my early teens, I would get so depressed when I hear my parents fight because I have no way of blocking it out. But now music makes my life more ‘peaceful’, because I don’t have to face the yelling and words piercing each other in my home. Same as running, it’s my excuse to feel more at peace. I know it’s cowardly to run out when it’s like a battlefield in my house, but I run and run to take my frustration and make it into the sweat that comes out of my pours.
4. There are a lot of places that’s special to me, but closer to home would be the staircase in my building that is always empty. 50+ floors of stairs is my kingdom, when I bellow my heart out with my frustration or meet my friends in it, I can always forget what’s happening at home or school and get it out. Sometimes I just stay there and read or listen to music for ages where no one bothers me, that’s why the staircase is special to me.
5. I’ve been to a lot of places with my parents, I enjoy seeing different aspects of culture in this world, but it also inspires me in things I do. My music taste changes when I go to a different country, my view on the world changes when I go to a 3rd world country. I can’t say it makes me who I am, but it’s takes up a great deal of me.
6. When I have spare time and feel lazy, I just stay home where my friends are the computer and food. It doesn’t depress me that I spend hours on end at home watching soup because it relaxes me. Where as other people my age would go out and hang out, it’s my ‘hobby’ and I don’t have to worry about what others think of me inside my home.
7. One of my top goals in life is to have a job I love, from the experiences I hear around me, I don’t want to be stuck with a job that I hate for rest of life. Because it drives a person absolutely crazy to do what they hate for hours on end, so I want a job that makes me feel happy in what I do. Right now, I am thinking of becoming a nurse because they help people during their lowest time and don’t have all the pressure of being a doctor.
8. I feel happy when I set a goal for myself and achieve it, because it’s like running a furious race with yourself and winning at the end. I think this explains itself.
9. My day would suck if I didn’t have a shower in the morning to wake myself up, the whole day would just be like a blur to me and I won’t remember a thing that I did that day. Mornings are the most important to me because it maps out the rest of my day. If I got up feeling refreshed and have a nice breakfast, it would make my day so much better. Where I pay attention more in class and feel great for a test. Of course everything else counts too, to study, to finish all the homework and to go to class prepared.
10. Sometimes I feel like the future is so unnerving for me and other kids my age, compared to what teenagers went through 50 years ago. We now have to go through so much obstacles and competition compared to before. There’s double the competition now in the world to be up against, and it pains me to picture myself not doing what I want in the future, because thousands of others are fighting for the same dream I have.